my father.

no i haven't mentioned him in any of my posts. infact i don't mention him much with anyone for that matter. i was thinking abt him yesterday though. there was this part of me that missed him. i'm trying to recall all the good things about him and i plan to keep it that way. it's so wierd knowing i have a dad and yet i feel no connection to him when we're face to face. it's just this bunch of butterflies in my stomach that tells me yeh.. he's ur dad.

one memory sticks with me till today though. the day i asked him why he called me his diamond. i remembered him looking at me and smiling. then he said cos diamonds are forever.

but gone were the days..

gone were the days i could hold his hand like a little girl and sit on his lap and giggle. or the times he'd put my feet on his palm to see how much i was growing. i guess it's cos i'm not a little girl any more and that time's passed. i missed it.

gone were the days..

of me being mommie's baby girl and daddy's diamond.

old habits die hard

okay okay.. u're going to ask, what's my lame excuse now?? yeh i haven't written in ages now and i have only me to blame. gosh a lot's changed. some for the better. decisions that weren't easy to make. friendships made and bonds that struggle to keep strong. the usual of what life throws at you.

i write today hoping still, that i'll keep up with this blog. it's like the diet i promised myself i'd keep up to, but failing terribly at. what can i say?

old habits die hard.