tearsoflovedones.

f*ck.

saturday:
-indy decided to be a f*ck head and act on impulse instead of using his brains. he punched the screen door in. just tell me how the f*ck are we supposed to replace that? and the worst part is, it triggered mom off. thank god he left. don't bother asking me to f*cking hell type out everything that happened. it's the jist of it and that's it.

wednesday:
-met mario online. i kinda fell asleep on the chair waiting for him and the poor boy thought i was pissed off at him. insecurities are sinking in i guess. i mean really, he doesn't worry when i'm in s'pore cos i'm not particularly interested in asian guys (no i'm not racist!) but moving to aus is a whole new ball game.
- had a misunderstanding with mom. clearly not the best experience.

thursday:
-met my baby online. he's more down today than he was ystd. he's been crying a bit.i wish i cld do something to help and take it all away but the distance is really taking a toll on us. so many plans, so long of a wait. it's one of those helpless feelings that rips u apart over an over and over again. *sigh*
-lou had appointment with docs.
-went into town, saw the most lovely pair of boots that's like $49.95 and a coat for $89.90 suck shit.
-finally, my dearest nadiah came online. yay i made her feel better but i wish i was there. i hate this feeling.

f*ck.